Military families or for other reasons that people don’t live close to their families may know how hard this situation is. I grew up in a small city until just before I turned 21. It has been 6 years since and it’s still hard not being able to drive 5-10 minutes to see my family.
I guess I can say it’s gotten easier. A big reason is we are now just an 8 hour drive from home
, I will always call it home
Some of you I’m sure are thinking “just an 8 hour drive!?” Yep, and that is because it use to be 21 hours
to drive home. We stopped half way of course, but I whole heartily say, I do NOT miss that distance.
The 21st of this month my dad’s side of the family had their Christmas party. My dad’s mom who lives in Vermont was in town. Sadly, I couldn’t be there, this time of the year our hometown usually has a ton of snow. Three to five FEET
is normal to us, but since my husband is in the military he only has so many days off of work & we don’t want him getting in trouble if we got stuck there. So the night of the 21st, I started to work on finishing my peanut butter balls when my phone rang. It was my cousin, Amber, I thought, “oh, she’s calling so I can talk to grandma and everyone at the party.” Then I heard Amber balling, talk about making you stop in your tracks
She said grandma had a heart attack and then I couldn’t really understand her and then those dreaded words we’re said…she passed away :’(
That afternoon, I checked the mail and received her Christmas card and talked to her just last week about seeing her next summer. My heart has been aching and it’s felt so unreal. My grandma was healthy, fit, and not even 70. Never have I wondered “why?”, so much in my life
I do the same thing with my cards, it’s the little things <3
Still not sure if she had a heart attack, but did find out she had an aneurism in her stomach. There was no saving her :’( Not being there, is the hardest part.
Not being with my dad, my cousins, & everyone during such a difficult time in our lives hurts. If you’ve been there, then you know, it’s a whole new level of hurt
I typed this the 22nd, but didn’t want it posting until today because, I very thankfully am getting to go home. Now that we are so much closer, it’s easier and more affordable to be able to go. Although, it’s for the worse reason, I am thankful I will be there for the services and get to be with my family <3
Always tell those you love and care about, how much they mean to you. My cousin said this to me, “It doesn’t seem possible or real, you just always assume they will be there, or be 90 and senile first, not happy and living.” I couldn’t have said it better. Cherish every moment you have with your family, friends, and the world!
I hope everyone had a blessed Christmas and has a fun New Years! Stay safe & take care!